Easter

Last night I was reading through the story of Jesus' death and resurrection in the gospel of Matthew, and for some reason the story really hit me hard. Maybe it was because I was tired and especially emotional. Or maybe because I have been trying to imagine what it would actually have been like to be the people in the Bible as a read it. But whatever the reason was, I was crying my eyes out as a read the story of Jesus' death, and as I read it, something struck me. Jesus did all this stuff for us. He came down from paradise, suffered so much pain and felt God turn His back on Him, for us. He did all this even then we are no where close to deserving it. Yet, my life, I am not willing to do the simplest things for Him.

I hardly spend any time reading my Bible because I am too busy doing other stuff. I don't want to speak out for Jesus because  I am afraid of being ridiculed. I don't want to witness to people because it is uncomfortable for me. I don't put others over myself, like He asks me, because then  I don't get to do what I want. He went through all that pain to save me, and I am not willing to give up a little of my comfort for Him. He loved me so much, and I chose to ignore Him because I am too busy watching Youtube videos.

So, on this Easter, God has really convicted me. I need to strive to do more for Him. Not to pay Him back, not to try and get even. But because He loves me and  I love Him back.

-Nat